I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining samples of the teachings of a course in miracles, and fo the first time in a lengthy while, I do not feel alone.

Element of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I could be doing so for the wrong reason; as a means in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to generally share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.

That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside a course in miracles. Don't are interested troubling your brain, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I really could not think of whatever I had stated that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents'peace of mind, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.

You can find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.