I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining types of the teachings of a course in miracles acim, and fo initially in a long while, I don't feel alone.

Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be this for the wrong reason; as a way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to share wasn't yet clear during those times; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.

That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have enable you to see inside. Don't are interested troubling the mind, won't you allow it to be?” This confused me as I possibly could not consider whatever I had stated that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents'peace of mind, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.

You can find other things that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.