I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a lengthy while, I don't feel alone.

Section of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be this for the wrong reason; as a means to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to share wasn't yet clear during those times; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.

That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside. Don't want it troubling your brain, won't you allow it to be?” This confused me as I could not think of something that I had stated that I felt regret for.acim

Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in arriving at the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere having its residents'reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.

You will find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.