I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in an extended while, I do not feel alone.a course in miracles

Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I will be this for the incorrect reason; as a way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to generally share wasn't yet clear during those times; only on the drive away did it coalesce.

That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside. Don't are interested troubling your brain, won't you allow it be?” This confused me as I could not consider something that I had stated that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents'peace of mind, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.

You can find other items that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.